Hello everyone, my name is Fulian Mo from a small rural village in Guangxi Province, China. We have our own traditional beliefs there. We worship Buddha during holidays or when there are special requests. When there are special circumstances, we sometimes pay for people to help solving our problems by praying for blessings, returning blessings, and so on. At that time, I didn’t realize or understand the matter of worshiping Buddha. I just followed the customs. When I grew up, I kept following what everyone did in my hometown. When something bad happened, I would ask people to help tell the fortune, and also ask for a happy family, a happy marriage and disease-free. However, the reality has not developed in the direction I requested. My children have been sick since childhood, and my marriage was not happy. I lived as a monk ringing the clock everyday. When I had a conflict with my husband, we would be silent to each other for a few days and then kept our life going as usual. When there was a problem disciplining our children, I would do nothing but just hoping that everything would be fine when they gets older. This is how my original family is like. No one taught me how to love people, how to get alone with my husband, and how to educate my children. Everyone in my hometown would just go to worship and pray for the Buddha when something bad happened. The need of self-change never occur to my mind.
I was lucky to know sister Min Zhou in 2016. I knew she is a Christian but I thought Christianity is just like Buddhism and I was not interested. In 2018 my parents came to the United States, and sister Min Zhou and I became colleagues. We chatted when we were not busy during working. Whenever I mentioned the conflicts in my family, sister Min Zhou always said: “Dear, You have to go to church, you have to believe in the Lord, and only the Lord can help you. Human abilities are limited, and God is almighty”.
After that, she kept telling me stories from the Bible. Whenever I told her something happened in my family, she answered me with stories and words from the Bible and asked me to read the Bible. I felt like I couldn’t communicate with her until one day she offered to take my mother to the church after I mentioned my mother was bored at home. Therefore, my mother came to the church before me.
What surprised me was that my mother really liked going to the church. Every time she came home from the church, she was happy. Then I go to the church with her since I didn’t want to upset my mom. One time Pastor Tan’s sermon about the relationship of husband and wife (Book of Ephesians chapter 5 ) touched me and let me know how the correct interaction between the couple should look like. Besides, the brothers and sisters from the church were very warm-hearted and helped me selflessly such as Andrew & Helen Chan, Bonnie Cage, Isabella and so on. They all acted like Jesus and touched me deeply.
I have been going to church ever since. One time in the end of Pastor Tan’s preaching, he called people to raise their hands if they were willing to believe in Jesus Christ and he wanted to pray for them. The holy spirit touched me so I raised my hand. After the sermon, Ms. Xu came to me and asked if I had time to learn the essential truths of Christianity. During the learning time between Ms. Xu and me, she helped me make a decision to trust in Jesus Christ and realize He is the true and faithful God. We are all sinners and meant to be dead, but God loves us, he sent his only son to save us and be crucified for our sins. Then he was resurrected to let us see hope again. As long as we believe in Him, we will not die but have eternal life.
After several months of studying the Bible and participating in fellowships, I deeply experienced the power and love of God, and realized my sins and shortcomings. I began to change myself and learn about love, tolerance, forgiveness, and humility, and more importantly, learn to pray. We can know God’s will and earn wisdom and strength only from prayer.
Last month, there were some conflicts between my husband and my daughter. I didn’t know what to do. If I were the old me, I might lose my temper, and keep silent to them for a few days. But now since I have taken off my old clothes, and put on new ones, I shouldn’t deal with the problem like the way I did before. I started to pray for the calming heart, and then I asked for advice from the brothers, sisters and pastors of the church how I can handle this situation in a way which would please God.
The Bible says that there is God’s will behind everything. If we want to know God’s will, we must pray. Since God allows things to happen, there must be His good will. They all prayed for me and asked God for wisdom, strength, and peace of mind. Thank God for providing the unexpectedly perfect results and I really felt His presence. Not only are there no conflicts arised between my husband and my daughter, but we have better and closer relationship in my family now. The Lord is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. He Is my Lord, I want to follow Him all my life until the day I meet the Lord in heaven. Thank God. Amen.
